One month from today, I will be Mrs. {Insert Not My Born With Last Name Here}. One month from today, the day will have been over for a full day already and we'll be opening gifts and spending time with the ones closest to us. One month from today, the day that we've spent the last 13 months planning for, will be over and a new chapter will begin. One month.
It seems like an eternity away and yet so soon. Too soon. When I thought it used to be bad when people would ask me "Are you ready?" three months ago, it has turned into the only thing people want to talk about. I smile and tell them sure I'm ready. I've never been so excited. Everything the average person wants to hear. The last part is accurate. I really am excited to open a new door of my life and see where it takes me. But am I ready?
Can anyone really be ready for marriage? You're born into the world thinking you'll grow up, go to school, meet new friends, find a great job, travel, settle down, find someone who makes you laugh, travel some more, and start a family. In my whole plan for life, marriage wasn't in there. I wanted someone to hang out with, to make me laugh, to be by my side, but I never pictured myself the marrying kind.
If anything I thought I would end up staying with said significant other for ten plus years then maybe we would get married if the time felt right. Then the roommate came along. He wanted to get married but wasn't too keen on having kids. I wanted to have kids but wasn't too keen on getting married. We compromised.
A whole lot will change and nothing will change at all in one month. We'll still be the exact same people we were before. We won't love eachother no more or no less than today. A big thing that will be different is all that annoying paperwork I have to get through in order to get my last name changed. We'll also be labeled in the "married" category of society. On surveys...or anything for that matter, I won't be able to put single. I'll have a label. I asked to keep my own last name which to my dismay, I was replied to with a laugh. We all can figure out what that answer meant. All in all...my answer to the question "Are you ready?" is "Ready for what?" because I don't have anything to be ready for. God has led me down this path for a reason and there is not point in questioning it because I know He knows this is right. If I wasn't meant to be with this person, we wouldn't have made it this far.
This has just been weighing me down the past few days as I sat at home watching Ms. Roberts in My Best Friends Wedding while battling a sinus infection. I had to write about it. See what you all thought. Does anyone else think we are ever really ready to get married?
Enough with the sappy stuff though. This is the cutest fortune cookie ever...